Impulsivity

I realized that most of my recent posts have been about my bulimia, but I also want to write about my borderline personality disorder.

I thought I'd talk about a few ways I handle my impulsivity without self destructing. These don't help 100% of the time, but they do help.

1. Get upside down! I'm a gymnast so I go to the gym four times a week to do flips, and that gives me an outlet for a lot of my impuslivity, and also works as a mindfulness activity. Try power yoga, and open adult gym class or a trip to one of those new trampoline gyms. You could even try doing handstands, cartwheels or elbow stands in an open area.
2. SHOP! Impulsive spending is one of my behaviours, but it is possible to do this in a safe way. Try going to the dollar store, shopping for school supplies or even going to the grocery store (to buy healthy foods). I've used grocery shopping as an outlet for my impulsive spending by buying food I wouldn't normally buy, but will eat. I'll buy things like new protein powder or sushi. I even used textbook buying to calm my urge to impulsively spend money.
3. Drink a very hot or very cold beverage. This really helps my binge/purge urges. The temperature shock gets me to calm down. Taking a very hot (not burning though!) or cold shower works as well. 
4. Send a sexual text. This helps me with my sleeping around urges. Since having a boyfriend, the urges have calmed down, but I know it's a common thing with those who suffer with borderline. Instead of going and sleeping with strangers, try just sexting strangers over Tindr. I did this when I was single, and it was much safer than getting into a strangers car.

Update

I safely landed in Vancouver after my five hour freezing cold flight. In about an hour I head over to register for the summer school I'm attending. I'm both excited and frightened.

I know I'm going to have a good time, and I know this is really going to motivate me for my upcoming return to classes. I just want to get settled into the residence I'll be staying at and meet the other students. Once that's been done, I'll feel a lot better.

I'm currently working on a few poems and articles that I am hoping to post by the end of the month. They're all in the final editing stage :)

Since my schedule has been completely thrown off course lately, I thought I would finish with some gentle reminders:

• Please remember to take your medication this morning
• Please remember to have breakfast this morning, no matter what you ate or didn't eat last night
• Please remember to brush your teeth
• Please remember to dress in a way that feels good for you
• Please remember to move a bit today, whether it's just leaving your bed for some tea, or going for a nice walk (with accordance to your doctor's orders)
• Please remember that socializing is helpful, but so is time alone, and try to do a bit of both

Sending lots of love to everyone