Lapse

I've been doing so well over the past month. No overdoses, no self harm.
My recovery has been a roller coaster only going up. Unfortunately what goes up, must come down.

After two days of my meds not being taken properly, I grabbed a handful of Tylenol and and threw it down with a coffee.

I'm in the emerg right now, regretting everything.

I'm so functional while all on my meds. But the second I dotnt have them life goes to shit.

My problem has  solution - take my meds. Be more assertive with my medication needs with my dr and pharmacist. I can make a plan for how to get through a day without meds.

I can find a way to make things work. But first, I need to get through today.