Drowning

I'm drowning. I only got 60% on a midterm for a course that I've already taken. I'm such a failure. Why can't I be normal. Why did I have to spend a month and a half in the hospital. Why am I so damn stupid??

I want to go to grad school. I want to study algebra. But it's going to be hard to do that if I can barely pass an undergraduate algebra course. I graduate in December and I'm freaking out. My grades aren't going to get me into graduate school.

I wrote another midterm today, and I think it went well. Now I have two assignments due next week. Two classes that I'm a month behind so I need to catch up. My thesis presentation is in 23 days.

I'm on campus now and want to run away. Not just home, to somewhere warm. Somewhere sunny. Somewhere with a grad school that will accept me. Somewhere where I don't need to stress. My anxiety is eating me up. I don't know what to do anymore. How do I get through the next 52 days?