I don't know what to say other than I miss him.
I used to never let myself get attached like this, never let me feel this way, blocked myself off from the world. But he's different.
He can make me smile on my worst days. I can't get that from anybody else. He can hold me and tell me everything will be okay in a way that I actually believe.
I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
I've never said that about anyone before. It's scary to say.
I got myself out of bed today, dressed and on campus so that I can have internet access. I have none until Tuesday. I'm getting out of work for the weekend so that I can go up to Kyle's mom's place and celebrate her husband's birthday. From there, I plan to go up to north to visit my dad, stepmom and two sisters.
My eating disorder is confused. I've lost a fair bit of appetite, so I've been non-intentionally restricting, but my brain wants to binge and purge, and yet food disgusts me at the moment. I also have a total of 8$ in my two bank accounts combined.
Jumat, 05 Mei 2017
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